Teri Aahatein Nahi Hain...

Its amazing how a song can define you and your status..both at the same time. And she thought she found a song which defined her condition in such a simple way. 


She recently came across a song called Aahatein  from the upcoming movie Ek Main aur Ekk Tu. The words were so appropriate, she felt as if the lyricist somehow knew her and wrote the song just for her. 


The lyrics goes like this:

Choti choti baatein, yunhi aate jaate,

Yaadein sehlaake jaati hain..
Raaton ko sirhaane, baasi muskaane,
Mujhko sulaake jaati hai...
Milna nahin hai mumkin, itna batao lekin,
Hum phir mile kyun hain..
Tujhko bulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai...

Maine nahin jaana, tune nahin jaana,
Jaane anjaane jo hua...
Kuch toh hua jo, mujhko hua na,
Tujhko magar kyun hua...
Galti nahin hai teri, galti nahin hai meri,
Phir bhi gile kyun hain..
Tujhko bhulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain,,,
Sab kuch wahi hai (wahi hai), par kuch kami hai (kami hai)
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai...
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai, nahin hai...

Teri aahatein nahin hai, aahatein nahin hai
Teri aahatein nahin hai

Kyun, kyun nahin hai

She felt as if she was asking this to herself. Why?? Why was there a void feeling inside her?? Why was she not able to understand this space?? She kept on telling her that whatever happens, happens for a reason and its God's decision for you. And how can God be wrong?? If it was him, she would have questioned his judgement, but how can she dare question God?? Still she did. She asked God that whatever was happening to her, was it His decision that she was getting it through him??

The lines, she thought, which really described her situation was when he knew that he would not be their with her forever, then why did they meet? Why is she not able to forget him or let go? When he said its the best possible thing for everyone's betterment, why still she was not able to make herself to understand that?Everything is the same as it used to be around her, her family, her friends, still she felt something was missing from her life. What was it?? She was sitting alone and listening to this song on a repeat mode...then she realised it is no one else but him. He was missing. He was gone, taking his footsteps away from her..forever. The footsteps which used to make her feel elated and gleeful, were gone. They won't disturb her anymore..her silence....not anymore.