Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

The Lost Book and Friend

Sometimes, somethings in life are supposed to happen, or much better destined to happen. I lost two priceless things from my life- my friend and the book i got from my friend, in a very short span of time. The first one i lost because of the circumstances of life, but the second one because of my cousin. 

I met my friend when i was a teenager. We never actually spoke a lot, but we knew we were friends (somehow that was the basic instinct). We had plenty of time to meet and chat, but we never actually did, because my friend was really shy in nature or maybe because he was scared of me..joke. Days passed, but we hardly socialized with each other. We used to say hi and bye for sure, but that was it. Few months later, we made some progress. It was winter and kids in the society used to play badminton. So one fine day, he also cam to play and that's when we got chatting. We shared a great camaraderie and it was fun. Days passed in a haze and he cleared his higher secondary and decided to do Engineering. He got admission in a very good college and he even called me home to show me the prospectus and everything related to his course. The glow and happiness on his face was enough for anyone to know how ecstatic he was and then he left the place to pursue his dreams. I had seen him working really hard to achieve his dreams, and it was totally worth. After sometime, it was my time to do the same, and I landed in Mumbai with heart full of dreams and aspirations. We were settled in different cities, and somehow we lost touch and were back to square one - not talking to each other.

Was it destiny or what, I don't know but i think we were supposed to meet. We met on Facebook (thanks to Mark Zucherberg for the innovation) and got chatting. And then he said he was also in Mumbai. I was happy as i found a known face in this crowd. It was like old times. We met and made fun of each other that how we used to behave and shy out from each other. We made the town alive by our mischief. Time just flew. I was happy to find my friend again. But as they say - happiness doesn't stay for longer period of time. The same happened with us. We had some sort of disagreement and the situation went out of our hands. When he was leaving Mumbai, i went to meet him. He gifted me a book - "Breathless in Mumbai", and wrote a message on the first page of the book. It read - "to the person, who loves Mumbai as much as I do". He kept waving at me from the airport entrance and that was the last I saw of him.

Back at home, in my spare time, I started reading the book. It was a collection of short stories which the author had experienced. I only got to read till 3-4 chapters. Then my cousin's wedding came up and I had to keep the book aside. My other cousin took the book from me to read, as I kept on praising about the book, and she took it to her office. There her friend borrowed it from her and somehow she lost it. And that was the last I saw the book.

I never got to finish the book. The stories were left unread. I felt as if the book was mocking me. I guess the book also decided to leave me halfway. Just like the book, my friend never came back. Now he's happily married and I'm damn happy for him. But the one thing which pinches me is that I came to know about him via mediums. I know life doesn't stop for anyone, it moves on. But i guess some stories are not meant to reach a climax- no matter good or bad. Some stories are better left unfinished.....

Monday, 16 January 2012

Loosing someone....





In this life, people fear almost everything and one of the scariest thing that we could ever face is that everyday, we have to fight against the inevitable truth that we can lose someone we love in just a blink of an eye. One moment you're happy because the person you love is with you, and the next thing you knew, they're gone. Yes. Just like that. 

Well, losing someone, whether by death or by accident, that may be painful that is painful, but somehow, it's acceptable. At least you know that they're in a safe place resting with God. But when you lose someone by choice, whether yours or theirs, then that's a different story. 

Everyday, people will knock and leave from your life. They will come and go and it is never their choice whether to leave or stay. It is yours. You may always say that they want to leave you and you want to respect their decision, so you'll just let them off the hook and leave. Even though you don't want to, you'll just let them slip away and depart your life. 

But, let me tell you this. If there's one thing that I have experienced, it is....

 "If you really want someone to be in your life, then you've got to fight like hell to make sure that they'll stay. And if you feel like you can't convince them to stay, then make them realize what you have that urged them to be with you before."

But what if, even after you fighting a battle worth asking the person to stay back, the person chooses to still walk away from you?? What then?? Then it is best that you let the person go, because they have already decided about it and nothing can change their mind. If they are not ready to stay back in your life, whom would you even fight for?? So sometimes, even if you really want the person to be with you, you have to let them go..as you do not have any other alternative.

But do not take anyone for granted..ever. Because you never know when that person decides to leave you and you keep wondering where you went wrong...and you might never get an answer.



Sunday, 15 January 2012

Teri Aahatein Nahi Hain...

Its amazing how a song can define you and your status..both at the same time. And she thought she found a song which defined her condition in such a simple way. 


She recently came across a song called Aahatein  from the upcoming movie Ek Main aur Ekk Tu. The words were so appropriate, she felt as if the lyricist somehow knew her and wrote the song just for her. 


The lyrics goes like this:


Choti choti baatein, yunhi aate jaate,
Yaadein sehlaake jaati hain..
Raaton ko sirhaane, baasi muskaane,
Mujhko sulaake jaati hai...
Milna nahin hai mumkin, itna batao lekin,
Hum phir mile kyun hain..
Tujhko bulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai...

Maine nahin jaana, tune nahin jaana,
Jaane anjaane jo hua...
Kuch toh hua jo, mujhko hua na,
Tujhko magar kyun hua...
Galti nahin hai teri, galti nahin hai meri,
Phir bhi gile kyun hain..
Tujhko bhulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain,,,
Sab kuch wahi hai (wahi hai), par kuch kami hai (kami hai)
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai...
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai, nahin hai...

Teri aahatein nahin hai, aahatein nahin hai
Teri aahatein nahin hai

Kyun, kyun nahin hai

She felt as if she was asking this to herself. Why?? Why was there a void feeling inside her?? Why was she not able to understand this space?? She kept on telling her that whatever happens, happens for a reason and its God's decision for you. And how can God be wrong?? If it was him, she would have questioned his judgement, but how can she dare question God?? Still she did. She asked God that whatever was happening to her, was it His decision that she was getting it through him??

The lines, she thought, which really described her situation was when he knew that he would not be their with her forever, then why did they meet? Why is she not able to forget him or let go? When he said its the best possible thing for everyone's betterment, why still she was not able to make herself to understand that?Everything is the same as it used to be around her, her family, her friends, still she felt something was missing from her life. What was it?? She was sitting alone and listening to this song on a repeat mode...then she realised it is no one else but him. He was missing. He was gone, taking his footsteps away from her..forever. The footsteps which used to make her feel elated and gleeful, were gone. They won't disturb her anymore..her silence....not anymore.


Wednesday, 2 November 2011

And now you are gone.....


A moment ago you were here and now you are not.
Was this destined to be: a preconceived plot,
a farewell kiss and some unsaid words
as you took flight my migratory bird?
"We will stay in touch", you promised and I am sure
the day we hold hands again will I feel secure.
You acted brave and maintained your poise
and I had to be supportive, though did I have a choice?
Assurance is what my heart gets when left to ponder,
you up there. I now know why they say
"distance makes the heart grow fonder..."