True Patriotism...

26th January...a very great day in Indian history. The Constitution of India came into force replacing the Government of India Act 1935 as the governing document of India in 1950. It is one of the three national holidays in India. 15th August..the day India got its much awaited freedom from the clutches of the British rule.

These are the basic facts we all know but for me Republic Day or Independence Day is all about the school days. I miss those days. It was so much fun and was like a very big festival for all of us. Getting up early in the morning to get ready for school, wear the whitest of white uniforms and shoes, waiting for the school bus to come and pick us up and the real fun was when we used to reach the school. Our P.T sir used to make us all stand in proper queues, with one hand distance between each other, stand in the stand-at-ease position till further instructions come our way. As I was in the cultural group so I had to be on the stage with the rest of the members. We used to practice all the songs and anthem well in advance so that we all can sing in a good chorus-not even a note here and there. We all used to giggle when our music teacher used to tell us to sing nicely. And I used to feel so proud of myself because I was one of the eldest group member and music sir used to rely on me and that is why he used to keep the microphone in between me and one of my junior's. 

Then the function used to began in a grand way with our songs and dance. Hoisting of National Flag, singing National Anthem, after that fancy dress competition, speeches  given by principal, teachers and seniors, and so much more. And then used to come the part which every student used to wait eagerly for-distribution of sweets and snacks. The beam of happiness which used to come on every one's face never used to go unnoticeable. All the stress and fatigue which they used to get after standing for a long time, used to just fly away. Happy endings for all.

After leaving school, we used to think-now where we will go for the fun, the function and most important-the sweets and snacks?? This one thought used to bother me. But then there is always a solution for everything. When I shifted to Ranchi, we shifted in an apartment, so it was a huge building with others residing there as well. So in the building, to relive those moments, we also started the same trend. We used to dress in Indian wear, preferably Tri-colour clothes and meet at the parking lot. There we used to have the Flag hoisting ceremony followed by singing of National Anthem with a salute and also the distribution of sweets like Jalebi and Motichoor ke laddoo and even Samosas for all. It was such a fun. Everyone used to get involved in it. Later we started with the singing and dancing competition as well, and trust me it was a hit among all.

Today in our busy lives, we still take time out for Republic Day and Independence Day and  atleast we make sure to remember the people because of whose sacrifices, we are living a peaceful life. Proud to be an Indian...Jai Hind!!

In or Out??

Like riding a roller coaster, or finding yourself in the middle of a maze, falling in love is the one of scariest part of being a human being. It is not easy. It takes a lot of courage and confidence to tell it to the person you love and courage to admit it even to yourself. It requires you to take risks, do things which you haven’t even done before, and conquer one of man’s greatest fear -rejection.  It is terrifying because you’ll never know if someone will always be there to catch you. We’re afraid to jump out from our comfort zone because we fear that we might just hit the floor real hard, hard enough to leave bruises and damages that may stay in our hearts forever.

Meanwhile, being in love can be considered as one of the most exciting part in our lives. Some may say that being in love is the greatest feeling that anyone can experience. They would say that we are lucky enough because we are made to love and to feel loved. It can really make a great impact in our lives. It can make your eyes flutter every time, can give unending butterflies in your tummy, make you stutter, make your knees feel like jelly, make you smile by just staring into space, make you believe in ‘happily ever after’, and the list goes on. It can give you an ‘out-of-this-world’ feeling and make you realize things that may change and inspire your life. It may change you to someone else whom you thought you would never be, someone whom you've always dreamed to be, or worse, someone whom others wished you to be. 

 But, most of the time, when love holds  us too tight and  brings us high enough to reach the climax of our happiness, it will suddenly loosen its grip and just let us fall and break into pieces again. Some may go through this smoothly and easily but some do not. Some will feel like they’ve been cheated or even think that they should’ve never fallen in the first place.Falling out of love is painful, suicidal, and crucial. It can change your views and even destroy the ideal world that you had created. It feels like you've been woken up from a long dream and find yourself facing reality alone again.

 People just tell you- its fine, its over, so move on now  but it is not. Its too easy said than done. You do not know exactly what it means till you actually go through the whole process yourself. Yes,  falling in love is the most powerful, exciting and most amazing thing that we can ever experience, and maybe that’s why falling out of love really hurts like hell...

Loosing someone....

In this life, people fear almost everything and one of the scariest thing that we could ever face is that everyday, we have to fight against the inevitable truth that we can lose someone we love in just a blink of an eye. One moment you're happy because the person you love is with you, and the next thing you knew, they're gone. Yes. Just like that. 

Well, losing someone, whether by death or by accident, that may be painful that is painful, but somehow, it's acceptable. At least you know that they're in a safe place resting with God. But when you lose someone by choice, whether yours or theirs, then that's a different story. 

Everyday, people will knock and leave from your life. They will come and go and it is never their choice whether to leave or stay. It is yours. You may always say that they want to leave you and you want to respect their decision, so you'll just let them off the hook and leave. Even though you don't want to, you'll just let them slip away and depart your life. 

But, let me tell you this. If there's one thing that I have experienced, it is....

 "If you really want someone to be in your life, then you've got to fight like hell to make sure that they'll stay. And if you feel like you can't convince them to stay, then make them realize what you have that urged them to be with you before."

But what if, even after you fighting a battle worth asking the person to stay back, the person chooses to still walk away from you?? What then?? Then it is best that you let the person go, because they have already decided about it and nothing can change their mind. If they are not ready to stay back in your life, whom would you even fight for?? So sometimes, even if you really want the person to be with you, you have to let them go..as you do not have any other alternative.

But do not take anyone for granted..ever. Because you never know when that person decides to leave you and you keep wondering where you went wrong...and you might never get an answer.

Teri Aahatein Nahi Hain...

Its amazing how a song can define you and your status..both at the same time. And she thought she found a song which defined her condition in such a simple way. 


She recently came across a song called Aahatein  from the upcoming movie Ek Main aur Ekk Tu. The words were so appropriate, she felt as if the lyricist somehow knew her and wrote the song just for her. 


The lyrics goes like this:

Choti choti baatein, yunhi aate jaate,

Yaadein sehlaake jaati hain..
Raaton ko sirhaane, baasi muskaane,
Mujhko sulaake jaati hai...
Milna nahin hai mumkin, itna batao lekin,
Hum phir mile kyun hain..
Tujhko bulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai,
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai...

Maine nahin jaana, tune nahin jaana,
Jaane anjaane jo hua...
Kuch toh hua jo, mujhko hua na,
Tujhko magar kyun hua...
Galti nahin hai teri, galti nahin hai meri,
Phir bhi gile kyun hain..
Tujhko bhulaana paaun, tujhko bhulaana paaun,
Yeh silsile kyun hain,,,
Sab kuch wahi hai (wahi hai), par kuch kami hai (kami hai)
Teri aahatein nahin hai..
Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai...
Teri aahatein nahin hai, nahin hai, nahin hai...

Teri aahatein nahin hai, aahatein nahin hai
Teri aahatein nahin hai

Kyun, kyun nahin hai

She felt as if she was asking this to herself. Why?? Why was there a void feeling inside her?? Why was she not able to understand this space?? She kept on telling her that whatever happens, happens for a reason and its God's decision for you. And how can God be wrong?? If it was him, she would have questioned his judgement, but how can she dare question God?? Still she did. She asked God that whatever was happening to her, was it His decision that she was getting it through him??

The lines, she thought, which really described her situation was when he knew that he would not be their with her forever, then why did they meet? Why is she not able to forget him or let go? When he said its the best possible thing for everyone's betterment, why still she was not able to make herself to understand that?Everything is the same as it used to be around her, her family, her friends, still she felt something was missing from her life. What was it?? She was sitting alone and listening to this song on a repeat mode...then she realised it is no one else but him. He was missing. He was gone, taking his footsteps away from her..forever. The footsteps which used to make her feel elated and gleeful, were gone. They won't disturb her anymore..her silence....not anymore.

Holding back the tears....

I kind of keep asking myself little questions 
Like where do I go from here 
I seem to keep loosing track of time and how long it's been 
Since I last had you near 

Been a painful road to a door that's closed 
Been a gamble that I knew I couldn't win 
Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you 
In the mirror there's a sing I must give in 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 
I depended on you 

I used to enjoy spending my time on my own here 
Watching the jaded people pass 
Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears 
And walking a road of broken glass 

It's a constant fight to get through each day and night
It's a war between the present and the past 
And the face that's in your mind every time you close your eyes 
What's the reason, what's the answer, how long will this last 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 

Been a long time since I heard your last goobdye 
Still I hear it clearly every day and night 
What's the point in love when you have to give it up 
Yet still you need it and it's nowhere you can find 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 
I depended on you

Really a Rockstar...

I recently went for the movie ROCKSTAR with my friend. I was very sure this movie would be nice, reasons being:
1. Its a Imitiaz Ali movie
2. Awesome star cast- Ranbbir Kapoor and Nargis Fakhri(yes the new hottie in the town with whom Ranbir is going out now a days, but keep on declining it...as usual)
3. The story line- very offtrack..

I am very sure so many people might have thought what is so offtrack in the story line, same old love story. But dude..its not the same old love story...its a love story with a twist..and was I amazed, you have no clue.

The story is very nice and it keeps you binded throughout. The editing has been done amazingly. I mean starting from a fight scene to directly landing you up in midst of a sufi song going on in a dargah(Sufi shrine built over the grave of a revered religious figure, often a sufi saint). 

The story is about a boy, Janardan Jhakar,  from Delhi who aspires to become a legend like his idol  Jim Morrison, and yes he also wants to show his middle finger  to everyone like his idol. So basically, for people who doesn't know who Jim Morrison is, he aspires to become a Rockstar...as the name of the movie suggests. He roams around with his guitar and keeps on singing" Jo bhi main kehna chahoon...oh yeah yeah!!!" to impress some music company so that he could get a chance to get some fame. But then he is suggested by his gyaan guru(the canteen owner) that until his heart his broken, he cannot write good songs with feelings. And for that he has to fall in love with someone and then left heart broken. So his search begins for the one reason because of which his heart could be broken. Now enters Heer- the actress, who is termed as the "Dil todne ki machine"(the heart break machine) by the college guys and taporis. He goes and propes her in front of her friend circle by saying "Girlfriend ban jao meri, rock karenge hum dono...only crazy for you baby!!"(If you become my girlfriend, we can rock together). First she hates him and scolds him infront of everyone and then he gets the cue and he also starts keeping away from her. But they click together by going for a Z-class movie"Jangli Jawani"  and drinking desi  together. So they become friends and do all kind of madness(they actually make a list of doing crazy stuff together, as Heer is getting married and she won't be able to live life like this after marriage). She baptizes Janardan as Jordan and he likes it. He goes to Kashmir with her for her wedding, where Heer realises that she is in love with him,but can not do anything about it. So she is off to Prague(called as Parag by Jordan).

Then comes a different phase of Jordan's life. After he is thrown out of his house for attending Heer's wedding, he starts staying at the dargah and then he makes it big. He is noticed by a famous shehnai wadak (played by Late Legendary Shammi Kapoor Ji) and then there's no looking back for Jordan. But then he realises that he is in love with Heer and when he gets the chance to go to Prague, he grabs the opportunity with both his hands. So then he is in Prague and then he meets Heer over there and then they are on a " gandh machane ki" spree. But then Jordan comes to know the fact that Heer is not well and she's got some blood problem(her body cannot make new blood cells easily) and she will die very soon. But Heer's husband doesn't like her meeting Jordan and he sends her back to India, back at her home. There Jordan takes care of her and when they go holidaying in Kashmir, she gets pregnant with Jordan's child, and she goes in coma and finally dies, and Jordan goes into a trance. Sad ending but worth watch.

The music of the movie has been composed by Legendary A. R Rahman( my all time favourite) and the lyrics by Irshad Kamil. Compilations of some great songs, the movie becomes more amazing. "Kun Faaya Kun"  is a sufi song with a soul in it, "Saada Haq" is the new anthem for youth now a days. "Katiya Karun", "Hawa Hawa"  and "Sheher Mein" add to the fun, whereas "Nadan Parindey" and " Aur Ho" are very intense songs.

So a total worth watch..the movie reaches out to all the age group of people. Kudos to Imtiaz Ali for another great movie, he lives up to the expectations of all his viewers. Loved it.... So people go out, watch the movie and do ting ling ling ling........:)

Only U...

When the cloud streak the sky,
The sparrow whistles to its mate
The breeze unravel my heart,
I search for you my friend..
I look for you in the depth of sea,
I feel you in the breeze
I see your reflection in places,
Where the trees over look the sea..
I gaze at the night sky,
I catch your glimpse in the moon
It seem to be the shadow,
Which stares at me every noon...
As I attempt to find you,
In the world beyond me
My eyes, my conscience tells,
You are here within me
And when I stand in front of the mirror,
Its you whom I see
I never see my own reflection,
Its always you, not me...