Holding back the tears....

I kind of keep asking myself little questions 
Like where do I go from here 
I seem to keep loosing track of time and how long it's been 
Since I last had you near 

Been a painful road to a door that's closed 
Been a gamble that I knew I couldn't win 
Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you 
In the mirror there's a sing I must give in 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 
I depended on you 

I used to enjoy spending my time on my own here 
Watching the jaded people pass 
Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears 
And walking a road of broken glass 

It's a constant fight to get through each day and night
It's a war between the present and the past 
And the face that's in your mind every time you close your eyes 
What's the reason, what's the answer, how long will this last 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 

Been a long time since I heard your last goobdye 
Still I hear it clearly every day and night 
What's the point in love when you have to give it up 
Yet still you need it and it's nowhere you can find 

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
trying escape the heartache, trying escape emotion 
No I'm not holding back the tears anymore 
Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time 
I depended on you

Really a Rockstar...

I recently went for the movie ROCKSTAR with my friend. I was very sure this movie would be nice, reasons being:
1. Its a Imitiaz Ali movie
2. Awesome star cast- Ranbbir Kapoor and Nargis Fakhri(yes the new hottie in the town with whom Ranbir is going out now a days, but keep on declining it...as usual)
3. The story line- very offtrack..

I am very sure so many people might have thought what is so offtrack in the story line, same old love story. But dude..its not the same old love story...its a love story with a twist..and was I amazed, you have no clue.

The story is very nice and it keeps you binded throughout. The editing has been done amazingly. I mean starting from a fight scene to directly landing you up in midst of a sufi song going on in a dargah(Sufi shrine built over the grave of a revered religious figure, often a sufi saint). 

The story is about a boy, Janardan Jhakar,  from Delhi who aspires to become a legend like his idol  Jim Morrison, and yes he also wants to show his middle finger  to everyone like his idol. So basically, for people who doesn't know who Jim Morrison is, he aspires to become a Rockstar...as the name of the movie suggests. He roams around with his guitar and keeps on singing" Jo bhi main kehna chahoon...oh yeah yeah!!!" to impress some music company so that he could get a chance to get some fame. But then he is suggested by his gyaan guru(the canteen owner) that until his heart his broken, he cannot write good songs with feelings. And for that he has to fall in love with someone and then left heart broken. So his search begins for the one reason because of which his heart could be broken. Now enters Heer- the actress, who is termed as the "Dil todne ki machine"(the heart break machine) by the college guys and taporis. He goes and propes her in front of her friend circle by saying "Girlfriend ban jao meri, rock karenge hum dono...only crazy for you baby!!"(If you become my girlfriend, we can rock together). First she hates him and scolds him infront of everyone and then he gets the cue and he also starts keeping away from her. But they click together by going for a Z-class movie"Jangli Jawani"  and drinking desi  together. So they become friends and do all kind of madness(they actually make a list of doing crazy stuff together, as Heer is getting married and she won't be able to live life like this after marriage). She baptizes Janardan as Jordan and he likes it. He goes to Kashmir with her for her wedding, where Heer realises that she is in love with him,but can not do anything about it. So she is off to Prague(called as Parag by Jordan).

Then comes a different phase of Jordan's life. After he is thrown out of his house for attending Heer's wedding, he starts staying at the dargah and then he makes it big. He is noticed by a famous shehnai wadak (played by Late Legendary Shammi Kapoor Ji) and then there's no looking back for Jordan. But then he realises that he is in love with Heer and when he gets the chance to go to Prague, he grabs the opportunity with both his hands. So then he is in Prague and then he meets Heer over there and then they are on a " gandh machane ki" spree. But then Jordan comes to know the fact that Heer is not well and she's got some blood problem(her body cannot make new blood cells easily) and she will die very soon. But Heer's husband doesn't like her meeting Jordan and he sends her back to India, back at her home. There Jordan takes care of her and when they go holidaying in Kashmir, she gets pregnant with Jordan's child, and she goes in coma and finally dies, and Jordan goes into a trance. Sad ending but worth watch.

The music of the movie has been composed by Legendary A. R Rahman( my all time favourite) and the lyrics by Irshad Kamil. Compilations of some great songs, the movie becomes more amazing. "Kun Faaya Kun"  is a sufi song with a soul in it, "Saada Haq" is the new anthem for youth now a days. "Katiya Karun", "Hawa Hawa"  and "Sheher Mein" add to the fun, whereas "Nadan Parindey" and " Aur Ho" are very intense songs.

So a total worth watch..the movie reaches out to all the age group of people. Kudos to Imtiaz Ali for another great movie, he lives up to the expectations of all his viewers. Loved it.... So people go out, watch the movie and do ting ling ling ling........:)

Only U...

When the cloud streak the sky,
The sparrow whistles to its mate
The breeze unravel my heart,
I search for you my friend..
I look for you in the depth of sea,
I feel you in the breeze
I see your reflection in places,
Where the trees over look the sea..
I gaze at the night sky,
I catch your glimpse in the moon
It seem to be the shadow,
Which stares at me every noon...
As I attempt to find you,
In the world beyond me
My eyes, my conscience tells,
You are here within me
And when I stand in front of the mirror,
Its you whom I see
I never see my own reflection,
Its always you, not me...

The Colour of Friendship..for my best friend forever...:)

A dog thought it would be wonderful,
if the colour of friendship was Purple.
A fox thought it would be strange,
to have the colour of friendship Orange.
Somebody once had said,
the colour of friendship is Red.
Then somebody thought they knew,
the colour of friendship is Blue.
According to a funny fellow,
the colour of friendship is Yellow.
A calico cat with a very sly wink,
purred the colour of friendship is Pink.
A child who did lie a lot,
said the colour of friendship is Violet.
Someone shouted with fright,
the colour of friendship is White.
But I heard a sweet echo call back,
perhaps the colour of friendship is Black.
People said it was decreed by a queen,
the colour of friendship is Green.
The mayor of a friendly town,
stated the colour of friendship is Brown.
Maybe the man on the moon,
wondered if friendship is Maroon..
But in reality there is no colour of friendship....
Friendship is just having fun,
when you are with someone.
Right from the start,
friendship comes from HEART......

What is LOVE???

If you love someone because you think the person is really beautiful, then its not love...its infatuation..
If you love someone because you think that you shouldn't leave them as what will others think of you, then its not love...its compromise..
If you love someone because you can not leave them thinking that you would hurt them, then its not love...its charity..
If you love someone because you share everything with them, then its not love...its friendship..
But...
If you feel the pain of the other person when they are hurt and cry alongwith them....its love
If you handle their mood swings very patiently and hear them out....its love
If you hug them and make them feel special...its love
If you just be yourself and be there for your love, through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse...its love

U...from someone special..:)

You...are the one who made me feel,
problems give you strength to deal.
and if you succeed, you'll be a HERO..
filled with energy and filled with zeal.


You are the one who made me understand,
its only love which lends you its hand.
It remains with you till the day you're gone,
and your life slips from your palms as sand...


You are the one who made me realise, 
life is meant to work, shine and rise.
It gives you the thing you yearn for,
and for me, you are the only prize.


You are the one because of whom I know,
what is love and that too true.
So one truth  want to confess,
is- I'll always be there for you...

Just Friends or......

Her first dream, her first friend,

his company where she didn't need to pretend.

To her, there wasn't anything more appealing

and not very later, this gave to a much stronger feeling.

But oh girl! The two are poles apart.

Friendship is a responsibility,love a commitment,

all you've done is read Mills & Boons, Eric Segal & Daniel Steel,

but the reality, sadly, none of these tell.

She longed for his magical touch , his one look.

'Best Friends' on the face, secretly she yearned for more than the hand she shook..

Wait oh, lass!

Let your brain not rule your brain,

let his words not drive you insane.

For him, you are just a comrade,

For him, love is a trade.

Stop oh damsel!

Do you even realise what path you are treading?

In silence secret chains of admiration you are threading

in his happiness, you find solace.

His dream is your dream, chase.

Think my dear, you didn't stop when it was needed,

to your emotions, his heart never heeded.

You held his hand, while he searched for the one he wanted to embrace.

His friendship to you is enough, it is God's holy grace.

Yet he hurt you, crumpled you, left you to die.

"We will always be together", time and again he mouthed the lie

and then he left her.....

Numb she sits, drying her wet eyes

to escape his hauntings, in vain she tries.

Yet he remains unknown of what you feel,

his love, your broken heart still loves to conceal...

And now you are gone.....

A moment ago you were here and now you are not.
Was this destined to be: a preconceived plot,
a farewell kiss and some unsaid words
as you took flight my migratory bird?
"We will stay in touch", you promised and I am sure
the day we hold hands again will I feel secure.
You acted brave and maintained your poise
and I had to be supportive, though did I have a choice?
Assurance is what my heart gets when left to ponder,
you up there. I now know why they say
"distance makes the heart grow fonder..."

Confused!!

Dear Life,
Why do you do this to us??I mean seriously WHY??When you know certain things are just not possible, why do you even try putting things in our heads??WHY? WHY? WHY? We might keep on looking for answers throughout our lives, but we know it very well that we won't be able to get any.
I have heard people saying all the time-"Life is so damn confusing and karma is the biggest bitch"...now I know why. It is very much true. But before we know the real meaning of the same, we are taken down by the virus...
But one thing i could never really understand in my life and this is the biggest question for now- "Why the hell are guys so damn confused in their life??" Why the hell they just cannot decide on somethings in life...
My friend once told me that sometimes in life you have to make choices...it might not be what you want at that point of time..but you have to choose...and yes my friend is a guy. But when it was time for him to decide or rather choose, he just couldn't...
So why give suggestions when you just CAN NOT follow it....why??? Stupid people i tell you..
Whatever it may be, i think guys know themselves best...so its best if we leave it upto them...anyways its a male dominated society...so who cares what a girl thinks(mark the sarcasm)....
Till the time guys figure themselves out...we party and enjoy being girls...yipeeeeeeee..:) :)

My Journey begins.......

Don't know since when,but i had the dream of writing..maybe a book someday. I always used to get different ideas and stories in my mind...but never knew how to put it down in words and whom to show...because until you show it to someone, its half..that's what i believe. So the dream always remained a dream...
But then few months back i was made familiar to the blogging world by a very dear person in my life who happen to be my very good friend as well..when he introduced me to this world, i thought "Boss! this is what i always wanted..right!!" It was my dream come true moment. I could finally write!!! WOW!! I can give a face, a firm base to my thoughts and my dreams and people will actually read it and comment on it..good- bad doesn't matter. But was i happy....you have no idea.

So my journey begins from here....and i really hope that there is no end to this journey. I just want to keep writing till i die and make myself happy...:)